I'm a little late to wish you all a Merry Christmas, but my thoughts over the holiday have been with anyone who suffers from a chronic illness - and those who don't. Having a chronic illness makes it no less enjoyable for me, but a greater effort to ensure that we all have a nice day - a happy day. I do put that effort into all the occasions I spend with friends or family, but Christmas ..... is somehow more important. or, I mean, it seems more important for it to be as perfect as possible and I don't necessarily mean with gifts, though I do often find it difficult to find the exact gift, even though I might spend days looking for it.
Does anyone else find it difficult to admit that it's so exhausting - enjoyable, but exhausting. I get to a point where I know that my mind will not cope with any more shopping, or thinking, and I have to postpone until the next day.... and so it goes until one day, I know there isn't a next day and I have to make decisions.
The most important thing of all, though, has to be my health, because if I catch a bug, then the exhaustion, sickness, pain - everything is heightened for fibromyalgia sufferers, so I feel especially blessed that I made it through the first phase!
The second phase begins today, as I have more visitors arriving this afternoon. Already exhausted, the pleasure of seeing them will spur me on to preparing their room and maybe, making a cake! My cat, however, is terrified of people and dogs, and as my family will all be here with their lovely dogs joining us too, it isn't a pleasant time for her. So, I feel upset for her, because she will hide away until they all leave and will show signs of distress for a few days to come - poor lass.
That is all going on in my head, making the holiday a blessing, but a worry too. I love my fur baby and I feel that I'm being disloyal by enjoying the time with my family and having them all here with me, as I feel I am neglecting her, and I am in a way, as there's usually only the two of us and she's comfortable with that.
My survival will be helped by taking daily time out for me and meditating - it calms and grounds me and can be five minutes or fifty minutes - the length of time isn't important. Daily affirmations also help - I know I shouldn't need them, but I wasn't brought up to feel good about myself - quite the opposite! A walk around the garden gives me space and, again, a few minutes is enough to refresh and renew my thoughts. I can do little about the exhaustion and the aches and pains, except make sure my trusty hottie is always by my side, but the daily stretching exercise does help and my body tells me when I need to do them.
It's a strange thing about the body isn't it? Stretching the muscles is so very painful and will find me screaming (luckily there's no one to hear me), but I'm sure it's what |I need to stay mobile and know that I'll be in more pain if I don't stretch, and of course, my body will suffer more from stiffness, especially in the morning. I'm probably not explaining very well - not good with words and the brain fog doesn't help. Plenty of that going on today, lol.
so, what I really came on to say, is that I wish everyone a pain free, joyous and magical 2018.
we tend to give our love to everyone else and not to ourselves - please be kind to you - you are worth it.
Namaste x
Does anyone else find it difficult to admit that it's so exhausting - enjoyable, but exhausting. I get to a point where I know that my mind will not cope with any more shopping, or thinking, and I have to postpone until the next day.... and so it goes until one day, I know there isn't a next day and I have to make decisions.
The most important thing of all, though, has to be my health, because if I catch a bug, then the exhaustion, sickness, pain - everything is heightened for fibromyalgia sufferers, so I feel especially blessed that I made it through the first phase!
The second phase begins today, as I have more visitors arriving this afternoon. Already exhausted, the pleasure of seeing them will spur me on to preparing their room and maybe, making a cake! My cat, however, is terrified of people and dogs, and as my family will all be here with their lovely dogs joining us too, it isn't a pleasant time for her. So, I feel upset for her, because she will hide away until they all leave and will show signs of distress for a few days to come - poor lass.
That is all going on in my head, making the holiday a blessing, but a worry too. I love my fur baby and I feel that I'm being disloyal by enjoying the time with my family and having them all here with me, as I feel I am neglecting her, and I am in a way, as there's usually only the two of us and she's comfortable with that.
My survival will be helped by taking daily time out for me and meditating - it calms and grounds me and can be five minutes or fifty minutes - the length of time isn't important. Daily affirmations also help - I know I shouldn't need them, but I wasn't brought up to feel good about myself - quite the opposite! A walk around the garden gives me space and, again, a few minutes is enough to refresh and renew my thoughts. I can do little about the exhaustion and the aches and pains, except make sure my trusty hottie is always by my side, but the daily stretching exercise does help and my body tells me when I need to do them.
It's a strange thing about the body isn't it? Stretching the muscles is so very painful and will find me screaming (luckily there's no one to hear me), but I'm sure it's what |I need to stay mobile and know that I'll be in more pain if I don't stretch, and of course, my body will suffer more from stiffness, especially in the morning. I'm probably not explaining very well - not good with words and the brain fog doesn't help. Plenty of that going on today, lol.
so, what I really came on to say, is that I wish everyone a pain free, joyous and magical 2018.
we tend to give our love to everyone else and not to ourselves - please be kind to you - you are worth it.
Namaste x
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