My Life - My Fibro

 I was reading an article today about how important it is for your heart, to have a restful nights sleep, but we also know that that’s really hard to achieve - or is it just me!  Of course, the doctor will prescribe something and my something was amitriptyline along with an antidepressant.  Unfortunately, the amitriptyline left me so heavy headed that it was lunch time before I could lift my head up and that meant That I often didn’t make it into work.  I did give it a fair try, but I was a single mum with a house to run and a mortgage to pay and I needed to work. Luckily, I had a friend who often went on holiday to America and she brought me back some melatonin which was easily available over there. Also, Fibromyalgia was (and I believe, still is) more accepted in America too and she was able to bring back a video recording of someone giving advice on living with fibro and how to manage every day tasks such as hair washing, etc. I did find the melatonin much easier ...

When I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia, my consultant asked me about my childhood and believed that the abuse I received had contributed towards it.  I think he could have been right as I was diagnosed with IBS at quite a young age too.  This is a a part of a page from one of my diaries and I have never shared it with anyone, but thought I’d share it here.  ‘Our journey through life is very different to someone else’s. We make the choices we make for different reasons, whether sensible or not.  I know that people around me - family - have thought of me as a weak person, but I tolerated abuse in my marriage, for what seemed to me the safest choice and not just for me, but for those around me. I’ve shared little of the abuse that I’ve endured throughout life because I knew that others wouldn’t believe it, or couldn’t handle it.  People think ‘how could it have been so bad if I stayed’, but there was no help for me and I had two children to think about. As a child,...

 I talked a lot about smiling in my last post - too much, but it’s the way I’ve dealt with things - smile as if everything is okay; smile because it feels better than tears; smile because it makes the bad memories soften a little - People can take away many things, but not my smile. When I was working my boss always knew when I had made a mistake or was struggling with something because I always laughed to myself. I still do it now when I’ve done something silly and we do a lot of silly things with fibro fog! My day began at half five after a very sticky and unsettled night. I sat up slowly and put my feet over the side of the bed - I did have one of those bed rails fitted for a while, for me to pull myself up, but it didn’t help! You need a little more muscle power than I could manage.  So now I opt for the slow motion method. I learned from a friend, that it’s best not to stand up straight away, but to get your bearings first, otherwise a topple and a breakage come easily. M...