Gosh - here I am again, wondering where the time has disappeared to!
I have to confess that I am a big fan of all the positive lives online now and try to watch when I have the time and that isn't often, so I have to be quite choosy and often listen in the back ground while I'm working.
it isn't always easy to be positive when you have a chronic illness and your days are constantly full of pain and exhaustion, but I try, simply because I feel better in my head when I'm smiling. Today the sun is shining and that's also a big incentive, but when the promised snow arrives again at the weekend, I'll have to try that little bit harder :-)
Stress is also a great big factor in how we feel. Long before I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia, it was explained to me about 'fight or flight' and how our bodies prepare us to deal with the unexpected or fearful by releasing adrenaline, but for me, it produces too much adrenaline and I end up being ill. And, unfortunately, that can be every day! The first thing to be affected is my IBS and that in it's turn has a huge impact on my body and I can't seem to tame it - so I have had to learn to live with it.
I always carry a paper bag with me for panic attacks (and I struggle to breathe) which can happen when I get stressed in any way - usually when I leave the house - and breathing in and out of the bag helps. Another must have for me, is a pack of Imodium, again usually needed when I am leaving the house for an appointment or having a rare day out. Of course, a telephone and taxi fare have come in useful before now, as I've had to dash home quickly. Meditation and Mindfulness, together with various online forums, are also part of my daily routine and help me to look at things in a calmer way. I've also learned to 'accept' the feelings I have and not fight them - they will pass eventually.
My head is all over the place at the moment and I feel totally exhausted, but I am moving house soon and it's been quite a long, emotional and tiring ordeal. As I'm downsizing to a much smaller house too, I've had to make lots of decisions about what to keep and what to part with, but my head struggles with decisions and most days, I just cannot think! People mean well and say "how exciting", but I am not at that stage - maybe when I'm on top of things and haven't got so much going on. I look forward to the day when I can just go for a short walk, or curl up with a boo, or just take in the moment, knowing that most of the hard work is done and I can take time to just chill 🙂
It isn't an easy illness to understand, or to manage and I decided long ago to accept that it was happening and I had to adjust my life to live alongside it - I hope that I still have a lot of life to live and want to savour every moment!
Namaste.
I have to confess that I am a big fan of all the positive lives online now and try to watch when I have the time and that isn't often, so I have to be quite choosy and often listen in the back ground while I'm working.
it isn't always easy to be positive when you have a chronic illness and your days are constantly full of pain and exhaustion, but I try, simply because I feel better in my head when I'm smiling. Today the sun is shining and that's also a big incentive, but when the promised snow arrives again at the weekend, I'll have to try that little bit harder :-)
Stress is also a great big factor in how we feel. Long before I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia, it was explained to me about 'fight or flight' and how our bodies prepare us to deal with the unexpected or fearful by releasing adrenaline, but for me, it produces too much adrenaline and I end up being ill. And, unfortunately, that can be every day! The first thing to be affected is my IBS and that in it's turn has a huge impact on my body and I can't seem to tame it - so I have had to learn to live with it.
I always carry a paper bag with me for panic attacks (and I struggle to breathe) which can happen when I get stressed in any way - usually when I leave the house - and breathing in and out of the bag helps. Another must have for me, is a pack of Imodium, again usually needed when I am leaving the house for an appointment or having a rare day out. Of course, a telephone and taxi fare have come in useful before now, as I've had to dash home quickly. Meditation and Mindfulness, together with various online forums, are also part of my daily routine and help me to look at things in a calmer way. I've also learned to 'accept' the feelings I have and not fight them - they will pass eventually.
My head is all over the place at the moment and I feel totally exhausted, but I am moving house soon and it's been quite a long, emotional and tiring ordeal. As I'm downsizing to a much smaller house too, I've had to make lots of decisions about what to keep and what to part with, but my head struggles with decisions and most days, I just cannot think! People mean well and say "how exciting", but I am not at that stage - maybe when I'm on top of things and haven't got so much going on. I look forward to the day when I can just go for a short walk, or curl up with a boo, or just take in the moment, knowing that most of the hard work is done and I can take time to just chill 🙂
It isn't an easy illness to understand, or to manage and I decided long ago to accept that it was happening and I had to adjust my life to live alongside it - I hope that I still have a lot of life to live and want to savour every moment!
Namaste.
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